Inner Nothingness

“Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? They are higher than the heavens above. They are deeper than the depths below—what can you know? “Yet if you devote your heart to him and stretch out your hands to him,  you will stand firm and without fear.You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning.You will be secure, because there is hope."
“Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? They are higher than the heavens above. They are deeper than the depths below… “Yet if you devote your heart to him and stretch out your hands to him, you will stand firm and without fear.You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning.You will be secure, because there is hope.”~ Job 11: 7-8; 13-18

People often say there are no such things as “thinking of nothing,” because even if you’re thinking of nothing, you’re still thinking of something. Yet, for the first time yesterday, I’ve realized there are such things as inner nothingness.

As I took my evening walk around the neighborhood before the early sunset, my thoughts were consumed with this nothingness. My mellow soundtracks softly played. With each reverberating footsteps I made, the street lights illuminated the path which I’ve came to cross. While gleaming widely, children are holding onto their mother’s hands. Couples strolling side by side,  lights turning green, cars swift by… This is what I see, this present moment, my existence abroad; yet with all the emotions that I feel inside, my mind is consumed with this inner nothingness.

Although I’m in my own company at the moment , I’m not sad nor lonely; rather, my heart is only filled with complacency and serenity. Perhaps when I say I’m thinking of nothing, I am still thinking of something- that something leads me to feel how I feel in the moment. The music goes on… 

Ai

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