“Creativity is a combination of discipline and childlike spirit.” – Robert Greene
It has been 10 months since I have last moved to this location. Throughout these 10 months, I entered a new way of life, a new way of living, and perhaps a new perspective which I never had the slightest thought of until today. This new way of life is a bit difficult but I’m managing along- daily. In my struggles and doubts, I earnestly hold onto my faith and belief that we, as humans, are placed into a certain location/place for a reason. Sure enough, we have the freedom to choose where we reside, but I truly believe the unknown/unexpected circumstances in life draw us closer to where we need to be for a given time.
If you are not familiar with my past and who I am, let me briefly introduce myself. I’m Ai and I’ve considered myself a sojourner. I’ve lived in 4 different countries and traveled to nearly 25 countries over the past 5 years. I’ve lived my life in a carefree manner, and never put much thought into my future than in terms of working towards finding a career. I never visualized life as settling down and working on a long-term goal that requires tremendous effort and discipline. I simply considered myself to be someone who lived in the present, and conceptualized happiness as having the ability to travel aimlessly and serve others through meaningful works.
Throughout these 10 months, I’ve come to understand the new concept which I haven’t fully grasped while I was away. This concept is adulthood. Adulthood is defined as “the state or condition of being fully grown or mature.” When one thinks of being fully grown or mature in our society, some of the thoughts automatically comes up includes marriage, family, finances, mortgage, credit scores/debt. Adulthood is a scary concept and it’s even more challenging to apply the concept throughout my daily life. Going through a transition of adulthood is something that I’ve been taking time to learn but at times resist. Yet, the path that I’m stumbling upon is a new stage of life and a development of growth- a necessary one for the next chapter in my life.
Adulthood is a growing process and as I’m assimilating, I’ve realized that no one can make the decision for me. My parents and dearest friends and love one could offer me the support I need, but ultimately cannot provide me the answers nor direction on where I need to go or be at a given time. My sense of well-being and ultimate happiness does not solely come from what others believe, rather, it comes from within myself. JOY & PEACE derives from the heart, mind and soul. It’s been a 10-month journey, and I’m still taking time to find that sense of acceptance and peace from within. From time to time when it gets rough, I simply reflect on the grace I was given and on the beautiful memories I’ve made abroad and the path I took to where I am today.
Until then, I want to express my empathy to those out there who are also stumbling along this road of adulthood. As I tread along this path, I will share the simple things in life that I do not want to take for granted but rather cherish in this given time. I may not be sharing blog entries of adventures abroad, but rather the things that brings contentment in my current life such as cooking, hiking- simple/meaningful pleasures in life.
Robert Greene once expressed, “Creativity is a combination of discipline and childlike spirit.” I, too, certainly want to take the step to be thankful, make the most out of my life and be creative yet disciplined and youthful.
“He determined the times set for them and exact places where they should live… For in him we live and move and have our being.” – Acts 17:26-27